I am really doing this again.

I can't believe I am doing this again. I knew I had the self control to do it but it's just so surreal.. I can't even remember how I got off track. I loved my lifestyle when I was healthy... I guess between working so much and staying constantly busy it was just so much easier to do what everyone else was doing. I would leave work on break or on lunch and go to the store across the street and pick up a slice of pizza... or chips.. or any other snack food. I just became so accustomed to doing that I forget everything I had learned through my journey.
  
It cannot be a diet it HAS to be a lifestyle.

That is some of the best advice I EVER received from someone. I still stand behind it today. Take things day by day. You don't have to cut out everything. You can treat yourself. It's OK to have a bad day. As long as you keep going. Keep living that lifestyle. Make smart choices. If you make a bad choice SO WHAT? Do it right next time. Remember it's a journey and it never really ends. You will be rewarded for your progress but it never really ends.

I spent a lot of time with family today.. but one thing was missing ... my husband. I miss him so much. He is working so hard for us and I really just miss him. If he can work as hard as he is.. I can work just as hard to make myself happy and healthy. I deserves it.. he deserves it.. Rowan deserves it...

In OTHER news..My body has gone funky again so I was told to start taking my Metformin again. Which I guess it is a good thing. It actually helps cut out some hunger .. Mainly my cravings for sweets I get late at night. So we will see how it works this time.

Emotional Eating....go away!

I am such an emotional eater. It's even worse since my husband is working so much OT. Yesterday I was so down because he had to go back to work... It was such terrible weather and then he had to go in to work .. on nights (8PM-8AM). I just felt sad. I did stay in my calorie range but at night I had 2 sweet snacks because I just felt down. I eat when I am sad, bored, etc. I need to get control of this habit! Like I have always said .. I want to eat to live not live to eat.

I am determined for today to go better. I ate a good breakfast and took my vitamins. I am going to get ready and go visit some people today.. I am going to exercise. I am going to be happy.  I am not going to let it get to me that my husband is working more overtime. I will not let it affect me that he told ME to decide if he should work on my birthday. We really need the money so we can stop digging into our savings. He was out of work for 3 months last year. Of course he should work. Rowan and I can spend my birthday together and I will be perfectly happy with that.  The rest of my family will be out of town. I won't let any of this control me.. I will keep going because I need to be healthy to be happy. I am not one of those people who are happy when they aren't healthy. I never will be. I have to do something about it!

I will stop my vent. I needed to inspire myself today. I need to get going!

Weigh in Day # 2!

I weighed in today at 198! So that's a loss of 3 pounds. I am happy with that! It's storming here so I am not going to write a long blog! I will update soon!

Today is going great.

So many good things have been happening today. I woke up feeling so healthy and my skin is looking great! My husband is on his best behavior. He got up before this morning and showered and ate then watched Rowan the whole time I got ready. We took Rowan in for his X-Ray today .. He had to eat at 5:00AM and not after . His appointment was at 9:30 AM. So he was starving. My hubby handled it like a champ and kept him calm. I had to go in with him though- they would only allow one person. He screamed and screamed and whined but the results were good and we are glad there are no "mechanical" problems as the GI doctor stated.

We are going grocery shopping again today. I found a cabbage soup recipe I want to try out. Along with Apples and chicken recipe! They sound awesome! I am looking for a few more good recipes to try out. I won't get in exercise until later this afternoon.. but I will get some in! Yesterday was busy and I only got to workout a little but it's better than nothing.

It's getting closer to weigh in day ....I am excited! I have worked so hard. I just hope I "see" progress. If I don't .. Oh well! My skin looks better and I feel so much better!

Dance..Dance.

Ever since I played my cousin's kinect I wanted one. So yesterday my DH and I went out and got one. We bought two games; Dance Central, Kinect Sports. Kinect Adventures also comes with the Kinect. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Dance Central. I look really goofy though. I really like boxing on the sports and white water rafting on adventures is crazy! Needless to say I never thought video games could be such a work out. I woke up this morning and could hardly walk.

I ate great yesterday and things seem to be getting a little easier. I do have some advice when you are trying to lose weight though. Eat Fish FISH and more.. FISH! If you like it of course. It is so low in calories and it's great for you. I felt so much fuller last night after I had a meal with fish in it.. Because I ate more!

Today is a rainy day so we are all staying inside. We have been cleaning and I am sure at some point we will play some more games (for exercise of course!). Rowan just laughs at me. I am pretty sure he thinks I am crazy.

Success x2!

I started an update yesterday and stopped in the middle because everything got so busy! Yesterdays update was called How did I manage? How in the world did I manage to wake up before Rowan... shower..get dressed ..and eat breakfast before he even woke up! As soon as he was awake I was ready.. fed him and got him ready and headed out the door for our busy day! We did a little grocery shopping and bought some fantastic food. We went to visit my cousin and her little boy and played the kinect. We played dance central and had so much fun! We also went to the store with her to get her groceries. Yesterday was such a success. We stayed busy and my choices on food were great. I have only been drinking two caffeinated beverages a day. I hope to get that down a little lower but it's an improvement!

Today has been going great as well. I made some errand runs and walked to visit some family. Again today my food choices have been great and helps I bought some things at the grocery store to help out! :) I am having one problem though.. I keep wanting to weigh myself but I am fighting that temptation! ha!.. I only want to weight Wednesday because hopefully I will see progress and stay motivated.

I had some times yesterday where I wanted to cave in and eat a ton of cookies when I saw my cousin's little boy eating them! I also wanted seconds after dinner but gave my food time to settle and I was ok. I always heard that if you do something everyday for 30 days it becomes a habit. I am going to keep going and hopefully after 30 days it won't be a struggle with should I eat that or should I not eat that and it will just be a no thanks!:)

A few things I am going to try...

*Drinking a glass of water before every meal. I need to up my water intake and not overeat.
*Not eat so fast.. easier said than done with a baby but I eat so fast I can't ever feel full!
*Give my food time to "settle" before I grab seconds.
*Instead of caving in to cakes,brownies..etc I will chew a piece of gum for my sweet tooth. I found some Extra Strawberry Shortcake and Key Lime Pie flavored gum! Also hot chocolate mix and water is only 70 calories a packet and usually helps with my sweet tooth!
*Not going to eat at all while watching T.V.. or while bored!


I am sure I will think of more soon!

Weigh In Day

Today was weight in day...I some how manage to lose 5 pounds! I am down to 201!.. I hate obsessing over numbers but it's nice to know something is happening. I have already started out with a water this morning. I am hoping to not have any caffeine today but one would be acceptable if any. I am trying my best not to though! This will take a few days to get use too!

Rowan and I are going to go over to my cousins house today. They just bought a new house and her husband left for work (he works offshore!) now it's just her and her three year old at home. So I am going to see her new house and visit for awhile. We are going to play with the kinect some! I am excited! I love the dancing games and we should have fun! Plus get in some exercise. I am going to take Rowan's stroller also to walk a bit. I use to live in the same neighborhood and loved it!

Rowan's apt went great yesterday. He plans on doing an x-ray just to be safe and make sure there are no mechanical issues but overall I was very pleased with the doctor! After the apt we spent some time walking around in toys r us (no babies are us .. just a baby section!) we also went to target and then the mall. It was a lot of walking but I do feel better today!