Friday, February 25, 2011

What happened to progress?

I have done it. I can do it. I will do it again. Losing weight is simple in theory eat right (What is "right?").. exercise (With what time?).. get results (Easier said then done.)

When I think of addiction the words "drugs" or "alcohol" come to mind but I have a different addiction. It's food. I have battled food for so long. For years I was over weight and decided it was time for a change. I did my research and knew what I had to do. I began doing those things..and slowly saw progress. In April 2007 I weighed 250 pounds. After my my decision to change my life(it truly was a life changing transformation) by November 2008 I had lost over 90 pounds. I changed my life. I was happy. 

What happened to my progress? I gave in. I stopped trying. I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I started eating to celebrate.. I started eating to help cope with the bad days.. I started eating because I had too much time. 

What do I do now? I start again. I am a twenty year old mother to a beautiful four month old boy. I want his relationship with food to be different than mine. I want him to truly believe in "eating to live.. not living to eat."

It's not complicated .. I know what to do .. so now it is time to do it. I know I can't do it alone. I need support. I want to change lives. I want to show people it IS possible.